Looking for peace of mind.

I’ve been in a black mood lately. Things haven’t exactly been going well. In fact they’re kind of miserable.
The Paradox of the situation is that the most obvious solution to some of the issues facing me is the most difficult thing to acknowledge.
As I wandered through the corridors of Wrath, Fright and Procrastination, I found and brought to light several of these thoughts that are plaguing my mind at the moment.

• Sometimes one burns bridges because he/she is fearful or ashamed of when others cross over said bridges for a visit. Better to be alone than to face the possible disappointment/pity from peers.

•Sometimes the lesson you teach isn’t the moral that is learnt.

•If one is always deemed wrong, how can one be trusted to make decisions?

•If one’s happiness can only be granted by oneself, then why are the majority of one’s happiest moments in the presence of others?

•One loves the concept of life, but not life itself. Relationships,victories, growths are all envied and logically appreciated but are not experienced.

• when one is repressed for a long time, what comes out when it is finally free?

• An ideal is simply a desirable state of being not a mandate on what life should be.

• If everyone is different, why are we trying to assume there is a single way of life for all humans to follow?

• A lot of the time we simply do what we want and justify our actions afterwards.

Laying out the issues in my mind made me wonder, what exactly do I want. And what will it take for me to be content. Not happy but content.
I will spend some more time wandering these mental hallways.

The seven deadly sins

Seven Deadly Sins : Evil traits or Survival instincts.
It’s a common belief in christianity that indulging in the seven deadly sins would send your soul on a fast track to hell.
However, when you look at these sins, they seem pretty basic to human nature don’t they?
I might say without these so called ‘sins’ Humanity would not have survived so long on this planet.
Em…. because in essence they are our survival instincts. Those traits that help us to live and prosper and avoid or overcome threats.
How? Here’s the List.
1. Wrath: when you feel threatened, cheated or even just offended what do you feel? Anger of course! It’s your self defense mode in order to protect oneself from precieved threats. There are occasions where anger has helped in allowing people to make a meaningful change in their lives or to give a much needed boost in energy to overcome a threat.
2. Lust: Simply put we can call this the reproductive instinct. It’s a natural push to creating future generations of a species. It is also said to boost emotional connection between mates. I don’t think we need much more elaboration on this.
3. Greed: This is hoarding and stockpiling instinct. We could say it is the drive for future security. Knowing of the seasons of plenty and drought, it is reasonable to expect that this drive exists in order to insulate oneself from the harshness of such dry periods. I.e. The more you stockpile, the more you get to enjoy later.
4. Sloth: Without a whole bunch of laziness there would be no technology. Every innovation in technology to some extent was based on the desire for an easier, more comfortable alternative. Cars, television, Internet, video games all have an aspect of making certain activities easier.
5. Gluttony: This is related to greed in the sense that while greed is outward stockpiling, Gluttony is more inward.
In uncertain periods of human history it was not uncommon for people to gorge themselves whenever they found food, because they were never sure of when they could get another meal. Basically delaying the effects of starvation.
6. Pride: this could be the leadership/ambition/ confidence drive. Any idea needs the confidence to back it up. In order to get things done or to convince others of a particular choice/action, confidence in oneself is needed.
7. Envy: This could be called the competitive spirit. This is the reason sports as a whole exists. Some say that having a rival can enhance your skills and push one to greater achievements. This is one trait that helps humanity push forward and advance.
Yes over indulging in these traits can be a a very bad thing, as morality tales and quite a few religions state.
In my own opinion this is because to a certain extent these sins aren’t society friendly. What I mean is, these ‘sins’ are very self centered in nature.i.e. Gluttony and greed can restrict the availability of resources preventing others from accessing them. Lust can lead to broken hearts, resentment and jealousy amongst rivals or even between the supposed “harem” or even the offspring. Anger clouds judgment, envy can be destructive, pride can limit progress and problem solving, sloth leads to passiveness.
I guess the point to this little talk is that like all other “things” there are good and bad sides to it.
So what do you think? Am I just saying nonsense or do I have a point. Comments would be appreciated.

Heyo there! I’m back!
2016 was a bloody mess of a year in which I was forced to go offline for extended periods of time. No. More.
Weekly posts are to be expected.